Thx for all those "Advise" u guys gave me. Its soo "encouraging".. Whether she accept or reject, i dun really care, wad i feel now is, i feel very ease? I jus release a load in my heart. + I dun expect her to be in a relationship wif me, so who cares?
Life still goes on wif me, play eat n slp. Went out to Terence house to pass him something n left later. Went down to Plaza Singapura n walked to Heeren. While walking, i did some reflection. I thought... Even though i enter a relationship wif her, how do i make her happy. Wad should i do? Wad am i suppose to make her happy? How to sustain a relationship.. Then i think of my usual ways... I feel dat.. I shld more be a loneley knight in the dark den be stucked in a relationship. Dats y i let it go. I have already feel dat the rejection is the wad i already expects, so i wun jus go there n cry n sae... "I cant without live without u", or maybe even commit sucide.. And Jen, ur nick really irks me :D .
I meet up wif Yee Ling, who is workin in the 77th Street in Heeren. Haha, she got praised by my friends for being cute. I do have to agree wif dat, since its already a fact.[Hope YeeLing wun read this blog, later she come n kill me]
Went down to Rapid Culture to check out my Gundam Models in Cineileisure. Abyss is out, go get it JH!
Den went down to Toa Payoh to get my Shattered Galaxy Time Code, woohoo go back home chiong SG. One thing i was puzzled is, when i went down to the mrt station, i wanted to go back to Yishun, but i didn notice till i went to Marina Bay dat line when i heard the word Orchard(cos i put my headset on ma), den quickly go out, take the opposite MRT n rush home.
Hmm, i really hope the MnM Nite dinner is successful, so little ppl is going, n not cooperative.. Haiz... Ashen u betta go ok, later i spank ur ass...
Friday, April 15, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Exams r over...
Yipee, exams r over, wad am i suppose to do..
Work? PLay? Camp?
Nah... dat depends....
Kinda stressed lately wif exams, hate Management n Statistics especially, i tink i can fail these 2 subjects. Sub Paper, here i come........
Haha actually i have a motive in updatin this blog, i jus change a whole new look, kinda nice rite? haha Naruto n Sasuke, my 2 cute lil friends...
I wan to confess something ..
There was this gal, i met her during my 1st semester in NYP. During dat period of time, im kinda wild, immature n have very bad impression of other ppl, n judgin them by looks. Kinda regret wad i did, n managed to change for the betta. Im more quiet now, cos i tink noisy isnt a good way to express oneself. Back to topic..
She was one of my classmates, i dunno y, i got attracted to her. It was during August last year... Ever since then, i held my heart for her. Sometimes, i confide wif her, she listen to me, she advise me, we do chat a lot. I do hope time would stop at dat period of time. As im a shy guy, so i usually hide behind my com, talkin to her. Life seems like a fairy tale to me, till the 1st semester exam finish. We didn really talk a lot, n she wasn't up on msn frequently. SOmetimes, i jus wanna wait for her, or jus check msn to c if she is around.
After the holidae is over, we met back in sch again. Haha camps r over, NCC stuffs done, back to study. SOmetimes we do chat, but not as frequently as be4.
There was this incident, when she lost her wallet in the Lecture Hall, which was after Christmas.I remembered, dat was a Thursdae nite... She cried dat nite, cos seems dat she had something important in her wallet(maybe cash?). The next morning, i woke up early in the morning, n then rush back to sch to help her look for her wallet. I dunno y am i doing this dat time, but it seems dat im the only one helping her. I dun wan to be some1 jus caring for her on the phone, but i wan to have this initiative to help her look for it. When she found her wallet, she was so happy. Dat moment, i felt dat my heart has the something right, by havin her in my heart. She smiled wif happiness, n i... also became happy.. After dat incident, we still do chat, but not as often as be4. Durin dat period of time, i tink... I tink shld ask her out? And do i like her? Dat was during the month of January. I asked her if i can ask her out for a dinner and to confess my feelin for her, she said have to c 1st. I waited n waited. At last she told me she cant make it. N also i gave her a limied edition Sasuke cushion(since she said she like it).
After dat, we didn really communicate much. She wasn't up on msn, in sch, wad i tok to her was only on sch work. I hope she understand, dat sometimes, i do feel shy talkin to her, dats y i use schwork to talk to her. Sometimes i have this feelin, am i useless? Y cant i ask her directly?
Months passed, n till the end of the semester, which was todae. I tried to meet her out alone, but somehow she was wif the others. I didn noe dat till i was on the upper lvl of the MRT station. I tot she forgot about this, or maybe she is avoiding. Who noes? I hope she noe this, i may not have another chance to meet her again, todae was the last dae. I wanted to tell u, but u arent there..
Stop guessin who is she already
She is XiangNing. U brighten up my life. U gave me this motivation, to fill my world wif colours... U left me wif happy memories....
I hope ur readin this blog of mine, n at least noe how do i feel for u. I dun wan u to feel pressurized or wad. I wan u to noe, dat i had already held this feelin for almost 9 months. Only u, no others. I dunno if im late or wad, but i cant seem to pluck out this courage to tell u all these times. I have been wantin to tell u this, jus dat, i dun have dat opportunity to tell u. I will wait till one dae, u will accept me. Dats for sure.
By,
The Lonely Knight, Cesario...
Work? PLay? Camp?
Nah... dat depends....
Kinda stressed lately wif exams, hate Management n Statistics especially, i tink i can fail these 2 subjects. Sub Paper, here i come........
Haha actually i have a motive in updatin this blog, i jus change a whole new look, kinda nice rite? haha Naruto n Sasuke, my 2 cute lil friends...
I wan to confess something ..
There was this gal, i met her during my 1st semester in NYP. During dat period of time, im kinda wild, immature n have very bad impression of other ppl, n judgin them by looks. Kinda regret wad i did, n managed to change for the betta. Im more quiet now, cos i tink noisy isnt a good way to express oneself. Back to topic..
She was one of my classmates, i dunno y, i got attracted to her. It was during August last year... Ever since then, i held my heart for her. Sometimes, i confide wif her, she listen to me, she advise me, we do chat a lot. I do hope time would stop at dat period of time. As im a shy guy, so i usually hide behind my com, talkin to her. Life seems like a fairy tale to me, till the 1st semester exam finish. We didn really talk a lot, n she wasn't up on msn frequently. SOmetimes, i jus wanna wait for her, or jus check msn to c if she is around.
After the holidae is over, we met back in sch again. Haha camps r over, NCC stuffs done, back to study. SOmetimes we do chat, but not as frequently as be4.
There was this incident, when she lost her wallet in the Lecture Hall, which was after Christmas.I remembered, dat was a Thursdae nite... She cried dat nite, cos seems dat she had something important in her wallet(maybe cash?). The next morning, i woke up early in the morning, n then rush back to sch to help her look for her wallet. I dunno y am i doing this dat time, but it seems dat im the only one helping her. I dun wan to be some1 jus caring for her on the phone, but i wan to have this initiative to help her look for it. When she found her wallet, she was so happy. Dat moment, i felt dat my heart has the something right, by havin her in my heart. She smiled wif happiness, n i... also became happy.. After dat incident, we still do chat, but not as often as be4. Durin dat period of time, i tink... I tink shld ask her out? And do i like her? Dat was during the month of January. I asked her if i can ask her out for a dinner and to confess my feelin for her, she said have to c 1st. I waited n waited. At last she told me she cant make it. N also i gave her a limied edition Sasuke cushion(since she said she like it).
After dat, we didn really communicate much. She wasn't up on msn, in sch, wad i tok to her was only on sch work. I hope she understand, dat sometimes, i do feel shy talkin to her, dats y i use schwork to talk to her. Sometimes i have this feelin, am i useless? Y cant i ask her directly?
Months passed, n till the end of the semester, which was todae. I tried to meet her out alone, but somehow she was wif the others. I didn noe dat till i was on the upper lvl of the MRT station. I tot she forgot about this, or maybe she is avoiding. Who noes? I hope she noe this, i may not have another chance to meet her again, todae was the last dae. I wanted to tell u, but u arent there..
Stop guessin who is she already
She is XiangNing. U brighten up my life. U gave me this motivation, to fill my world wif colours... U left me wif happy memories....
I hope ur readin this blog of mine, n at least noe how do i feel for u. I dun wan u to feel pressurized or wad. I wan u to noe, dat i had already held this feelin for almost 9 months. Only u, no others. I dunno if im late or wad, but i cant seem to pluck out this courage to tell u all these times. I have been wantin to tell u this, jus dat, i dun have dat opportunity to tell u. I will wait till one dae, u will accept me. Dats for sure.
By,
The Lonely Knight, Cesario...
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